Walking outside in nothing but your underwear and not giving any fucks about it :D
I want to get her stuff that I know she will like, but, she probably wouldn’t understand the meaning behind me getting them for her, since I don’t really exist to her anymore. Sigh…
It was to act sick at work for 2 days so I could have today, Saturday, off to see a band at Magic Springs that I saw last year. I have been watching their Facebook for anything near me and all of a sudden, on Wednesday, they said they would be here. I flipped. So, as stated above, I planned to act sick. What’s funny is as soon as I got to work the first day, I actually got sick. I finished my shift. I came in the next day, still sick. Manager said “go home and don’t come back till you are better. I’m not gonna have you here when you aren’t at the top of your game.” So, all in all, my plan succeeded. Now to just get unsick before tonight. :D
well…if I am always just going to be ignored by those I care for…I may become bitter…I don’t want to…but being treated like I’m not worth dating and that I am just someone you can toy with until you “miraculously” find some one else to take my place, iit wears through my patience. I am down to only a few fucks left to give. Not that the person I want to care will even notice. Sigh.
to find an eviction notice on the door saying my dad and I have 10 days to get out or they own what’s left.
Sucks sometimes. I have so many things I wanna tell her and ask her, yet I can’t open up to her when she just seems to ignore my advances towards these things. :(